Aku benci dunia..

Posted on April 10th, 2009 in General Musings by bunga39merah

Assalammualaikum…One thing that i really want to do now is..being away from this world…..

There is nothing else is in my heart but Allah (SWT)…..my heart has no more rooms for others and…I just love Allah (SWT) so mucchhhh…and hoping that i can just drive away and get out of this life, like now? How is that possible? Urghhh….
Kun fayakun….Allah makes anything posible…

Am i saying like i have no faith now? Or is this really my iman popping up so high or going down low? My heart cries out loud saying I love Allah (SWT) only!…..Well, there are other people in my life whom are just my ‘extra bits’  that I feared will always hurt me so much..

“Ya Rasulullah, Aku sangat menyayangi mu…perasaanku sama seperti yang telah kau ajarkan kepada kami, betapa dunia ini lebih hina daripada bangkai….Betapa bencinya aku pada dunia dan sangat rindu akan akherat…”

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Meraih Kasih Yang Kekal

Posted on April 6th, 2009 in General Musings by bunga39merah

Ketikaku mencari sesuatu yang menginginkan ketenangan,ku menemuiMu,hati bahagia bagaikan ditemani selalu,Kau mendengar rintihanku,Kau hadirkan seseorang bagi menemaniku,namun kehadirannya membuat ku alpa akan kasihMu.
Mengejar pemberianMu yang ku sangka akan membuahkan kebahagian, tidak pernah dapat ku raih,
Ku cuba mencari sesuatu yang ku kehilangan tanpa redha Mu, membuatkan diri terasa semakin jauh dariMu.
Tatkala ku sedar akan kesilapanku, Engkau menerima ku, namun ujian adalah tanda kasihMu, Engkau Maha mendengar taubat ku, ujian demi ujian Kau beri bagi ku tempuh untuk meraih kasih sayangMu yang telah hilang tanpa ku sedari.
Ku cuba mengejar sepenuh hati, menagih keampunan dan kasihMu, ampunkanlah dosa hamba Mu ini Ya Allah (SWT)..
Ku sedar kesilapanku..

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Don’t Be Sad!!

Posted on April 4th, 2009 in General Musings by bunga39merah

Love
: I’m picking up the car key, I’ll be there in 15 minutes, i’m not bringing my phone.
Loving Allah:
Ok.
(Hanged up the phone….45 minutes later..)Loving Allah:
Astaghfirullah al azim…I forgot..
(quickly ran down to the car park)
Love:Where were you?
(frowning and grumbling)
Loving Allah: I’m sorry, I was carried away with my job.
Love:I’ve been waiting for a long time!
(Shuts the door, and drove off)
Loving Allah: (Silent and hurt)

Went to the library and sat down on a sofa.Hoping that hurt feeling just washed away, but it did not….remained silent and hurt.

Grabbed the nearest book and turned a few pages ….took out a mobile phone, put the ear piece to the right ear and listened to ‘Doaku’ by Hadad Alwi….While reading….and listening….
Subbhannallah! La Tahzan!!! Burst into tears…
Feeling Allah (SWT) is so near…tears ran down the cheek, feeling calm and undescribable…..

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